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DEFEATING DEPRESSION PART 3 Depression- from Webster’s New Unabridged Dictionary Low spirits, gloominess, dejection, sadness, a decrease in force, activity, amount, and a decrease in functional activity. An emotional condition either normal or pathological characterized by discouragement, a feeling of inadequacy, the act of humbling abasement as a depression of pride. Abasement, reduction, sinking, fall, humiliation, dejection, melancholy. Freedom from Pain, Lies and Depression “Y’shua spoke to the Jews who had believed him. “If you obey my teaching,” he said, “you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth. And the truth will set you free.” John 8: 31-32 Shabbat Shalom dearly beloved: MY TESTIMONY
What hurts you, Dominiquae?
Uuhhh, I am not used to this, I only speak faith, who knows what will come out of my heart? This was scary, nevertheless I obeyed my Master and Healer and I wrote. I must have written a scroll or a small book, but I do not remember as I was crying too hard as I was writing, I was crying and screaming! Once it was all written, I felt an amazing peace, like 1000 tons had fallen off my chest, I could breathe again. But I was peacefully sad as I detected that on these pages I had written what I TRULY felt about me, my daughter and God and it was not pretty! Neither did it line up with His Word, in other words in spite of my courageous faith stand I had believed many lies and thus was in tremendous emotional pain! Emotional Pain “My soul melts from heaviness, strengthen me according to your Word” Psalms 119:28
DENIAL is a ‘safety mechanism’ that its purpose is to keep the pain “hidden” pretending that it does not exist.
However this works for a
while allowing the victim of that traumatic pain to live a border line bearable
life, however all of a sudden like in a pressure cooker, pressure builds up and
it begins to want to come out and erupt! It normally erupts in the form of
depression, mental breakdown, psychosis etc…Most people live in one or another
level of denial. What The Holy Spirit did with me during my life changing
retreat was to challenge my denial by asking me the surprising question, “what
hurts you?”, and then instructing me to “write it down” honestly. In other
words, He had me blowing off my built up steam in the security of His Loving and
Accepting Presence! Anyone that would take time off in His Presence and do
the exact same things will get the exact same results! You will feel like
tons of pressure have fallen off you and you will detect that you have been
believing some lies that are contrary to His Word and Will for you! The good
news is that nothing is hidden from Him, so though this will be ‘news’ for you,
it’s OLD HISTORY for Him, He knows you “O Yahveh, you has searched me, and known me .You know my down sitting and my uprising, you understand my thought afar off. You compass my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways.” Psalms 139:1-3 If you can believe this, then you will have the courage to be what I call “brutally honest” when you express your pain on paper! LIES AND ERRONEOUS INTERPRETATIONS I am going to make a statement here: “The more lies that you believe, the more pain that you will have. The less lies, the less pain. No lies, no pain” “Y’shua spoke to the Jews who had believed him. “If you obey my teaching,” he said, “you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth. And the truth will set you free.” John 8: 31-32 When we know the truth intimately then we are free, freedom means no pain at all. Pain is an outcome of SIN, our own sin and the sins of others against us. The BEST NEWS that I ever heard in my life came to me during this retreat when YAH Himself said to me: “ Dominiquae, I did not design you for PAIN!”. My answer was: “You could have fooled me Lord! I thought that pain was my middle name!”. Do you feel like I did? I have GREAT NEWS for you! The Creator did NOT DESIGN YOU FOR PAIN! Now, go ahead and say it to yourself out loud! “I AM NOT DESIGNED FOR PAIN!” I did not say that we will not suffer, I only said that when the suffering comes we are not supposed to hold onto and absorb the pain in order to carry it inside. He said clearly in Isaiah 53:4a “Surely He has borne our grief and carried our sorrows”
The answer was given to me during my retreat: I had been believing LIES about myself, God and my daughter’s situation. I had interpreted some traumatic events in my life in a wrong way. I had come to the conclusion that I was the worst mother in the world and I was trying to prove myself as a good mother by standing in faith for the healing of my daughter. Since Elohim did not answer me that proved the point that I was the worst mother and on top of it He hated me! Did I know all this in my conscious mind??? NOOOOOO, I was a woman of faith, I only believed and proclaimed the Word! I did not acknowledge my pain or my suffering, I loved and worshipped God all the time, I was in DENIAL! Deep within me I had pushed all these feelings of worthlessness and had put the ‘lid’ on them, The result of this denial was DEPRESSION!
Does this sound familiar to
you? Maybe you have gone through some traumatic events such as death of loved
ones, divorce, rape, abortions, bankruptcies or others and you have pushed the
pain down instead of acknowledging it and allowing The Holy Spirit to truly
interpret them for you, The precious, awesome, all healing Word of God give you
the correct perspective? Do not despair, you are not alone, you can begin
today! “My soul clings to the dust, revive me according to your Word” Psalms 119:25 The Threshold of Forgiveness As I was writing “the book of my pain” down, I felt terrible grief and terrible anger, but when I detected all the lies that I had believed, I moved from ANGER to REPENTANCE. I began to ask YAH’S forgiveness and I began to forgive myself, God and others that I thought I held nothing against. I had uncovered all the pain and grief in my heart and the lies that I believed were exposed to the light. My wellbeing was at hand! “He that covers his sins shall not prosper: but whoso confess and forsake them shall have mercy.” Proverbs 28:13 Declare Truth over the Lies!
“Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path” Psalms 119:105 Remember my previous statement? “The more lies that you believe, the more pain that you will have. The les lies, the less pain. No lies, no pain” I will add one more thing: Pain functions inside of you as a BLOCK to the flow of the Holy Spirit and His Glory, so: “The more pain, the less Glory, the less pain, the more Glory. No PAIN, ALL GLORY! So, this is the secret to an unhindered flow of anointing:
Get rid of the lies, get rid of the pain and get filled with His Glory! After these three days retreat, DEPRESSION LEFT ME and the Glory of Elohim began to flow unhindered in me. My external circumstances did not change, my daughter was still as sick as ever, but I had changed! I also understood that I was to do MAINTENANCE every month. And so every month I go on a 3-7 day retreat in order to maintain myself FREE FROM LIES, FREE FROM PAIN and FREE FROM DEPRESSION! Maybe you only need one day where I needed three days, but by all means do not delay to retreat yourself with Y’shua and follow the instructions of this chapter. You will thank Him and me forever! YOU ARE NOT DESIGNED FOR PAIN! While my daughter was not instantly healed but rather her condition grew worse, I had the inner fortitude now to keep going and one and a half years later, she was released from the hospital in FULL REMISSION! Today she is a blooming flower. To our marvelous Heavenly Father be ALL the glory! Redirecting my course
On the following morning I
came out to our morning prayer meeting, where The Holy Spirit showed me that I
had broken my vow to be traveling to the nations. I had made that vow right
after my salvation, but because of Adi’s illness I broke the vow for I was
trying to rescue her, so in my mind I couldn’t possibly travel anymore. As I
said above, I could not heal her not even after three years of standing by faith
and declaring the Word. I had tried everything and nothing worked! But when I
got rid of the lies, the pain and the depression , my ears were open to hear the
rebuke of The Lord. I had forsaken Apostolic Ministry trying to ‘save’ my
daughter. My husband told me later that no one could talk to me about this prior
to my life changing retreat! I was too full of pain to LISTEN! Now, after you
are free from pain and depression, LISTEN to His direction for your life. He
will probably REDIRECT YOUR COURSE. Be prompt to obey and live to the fullest of
what He has designed you to do! I immediately began to travel again, in spite of
my daughter’s strong objection! Had I not obeyed Elohim’s instruction, I doubt
that she would have been alive today, had I not rid myself of lies, guilt and
worthlessness, I would have not been able to go in spite of all opposition from
my daughter’s side. Once you are free from lies, you will have new strength to
stand and to obey. Once you obey, you will experience His back up, support and
blessing. Remember to maintain yourself free from lies and pain at all times!
The enemy will throw you ‘curb balls’ often but if you are free from lies and
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“And it shall come to pass, if you hear diligently unto the voice of Yahveh thy God, to observe and to do all his commandments which I command you this day, that the Yahveh your God will set you on high above all nations of the earth. And all these blessings shall come on you, and overtake you, if you hear unto the voice of Yhaveh your God.” Deuteronomy 28:1,2
FREEDOM FROM PAIN WILL BE FREEDOM FROM DEPRESSION AND AN UNHINDERED FLOW OF HIS ABUNDANT LIFE AND GLORY! Remember the steps to follow:
“The entirety of Your Word is truth” “And you shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free” Psalms 119:160, John 8:32 We love you and care for you!
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